Tuesday 31 December 2013

15 Weeks- Farewell 2013!

So Sophie and Emily have had am amazing first Christmas. They have been doted on by their extended family, joined in the singing at their first carol service, met a handsome rainbow baby called Benjamin and are just starting to laugh!

Emily and Sophie's Christmas Bears!


Today is the last day of 2013 and I can honestly say it has been the happiest but most stressful year of my life. At the start of January last year we scattered Matthew and Oliver's ashes at the beach on what would have been their birthday and I just can't believe how far we have come.

I would quite like 2014 to be a quieter year. We allready have some plans, our first family holiday and Sophie and Emily's Great-Grandad's Wedding (not many little girls get to go to one of those!) among other things. But, on the whole I feel that some quality family down time would be fab!

I'll allways carry the memories of my gorgeous boys with me and in a way the passing of another year makes them feel further away. However, I'm  feeling quite positive about 2014.. bring it on!






Tuesday 10 December 2013

12 Weeks Old- Feeling a Little Bit Festive!

So our girls are now 12 weeks old, they weigh almost 9lb and are going to their first Christmas parties this week! They are happy, smiley babies most of the time who love going to baby massage and seeing their friends at twin's club. They also enjoy looking at their mother like she's a loon at buggy fit! On top of all this excitement, this weekend they went on their first little holiday to the very rainy Lake District.

We have also made hilarious Christmas cards with photos of them in fancy dress on the front. I've allways had a policy of not putting actual, proper pictures of the girls on my blog so you'll just have to believe me when I say how brilliant they are!

Last Christmas I was not in a festive mood in any way shape or form. I just wanted the whole holiday season not to happen but this year I am looking forward to celebrating it as our little family. We have brought Emily and Sophie's gifts, made their stockings and, although I know they won't remember it, I am really looking forward to opening their presents with them on Christmas morning.

Sophie and Emily's Stockings!


However, This should be Oliver and Matthew's first Christmas too. They were due to be born in January 2013, so this Christmas we will hang their special baubles on our tree to remember them.

Oliver and Matthew's Baubles on our tree last year.
A few weeks ago we went to the RVI baby memorial service which is held at the start of December every year. It was very moving and sadly very full. Dr Smith, the consultant who stitched Emily and Sophie in, read a reading from Winnie the Pooh which chokes me up every time I hear it as it is so true.

“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together... there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart... I'll always be with you.”
A.A. Milne

So on Christmas Day this year, I'll be thinking of all 4 of my amazing children!