This weekend marks a year since our boys should have been born, a year since we scattered their ashes on the Northumberland Coast. It is also almost a year since we found out our girls were on their way (albeit not that there were 2 of them). Then the firsts are over. That's it!
I am anticipating other emotional milestones, the girls first birthday, the boys second anniversary etc. but, I think that for now my pregnancy and birth journey as documented in my blog has come to a natural end. I may well blog about something else in the future (I have a few ideas in the pipe line) and I'm going to keep lurking so, if anyone is ever in a similar situation and wants advice, please do contact me. I'll not have disappeared off the face of the Earth although I may well be up to my elbows in nappies!
Before I sign off I want to say a few thank yous. Mainly to my amazing husband, family and friends but in addition, to all of the staff at the RVI in Newcastle who made sure that my girls arrived safe and well. Also, to all my friends at Newcastle SANDS for keeping me sane and to everyone who has read this blog over the past year. Finally a huge thank you to Oliver, Matthew, Emily and Sophie my 4 wonderful children who, in many ways have shaped me in to the person I am now.
As I write this 2 very special sets of twins are about to be born and I wanted to wish their Mums all the luck in the world. So Caludia, whose blog I read a lot in the early days after losing the boys and to Claire from Babycentre... I have everything crossed for you and can't wait to hear your birth announcements.
My girls slept peacefully as Big Ben chimed in the New Year, they had obviously had their minds blown by Chris' "Dad Dancing"! I'm hoping that they will learn a lot in 2014 but mostly that they will contiune to be the contented and very well loved little girls that they are today. There will allways be a nagging feeling that we should be a family of 6 but for now I'm looking forward to a very happy future as a family of 4.
Happy New Year Everyone.
